Ho boy, this is gonna get a bit emotional.
I am reviewing most of the threads we have here in the wiki. Some here are pretty silly, some are irrelevant and some are just so random that you are just gonna scoff, laugh, smile or just roll your eyes. But looking back - even on the threads I'm not part of - each of us gradually shaped into our own personalities/identities. You'll never know something changed in you until you actually read each thread.
Admit it, each of us have done stupid things here and we regret it but it doesn't mean we're just gonna stop there. There are a lot of issues, I'm talking about the silliest ones to the depressing ones. I'm not going to talk about our immature selves just yet... but we all know, deep inside, what are they.
Can you guys imagine that all of us strangers here in the wiki gradually becomes to a group of friends then to a family? I know I might sound cheesy but that's how life it is. Simple but difficult. We're the only ones who make it difficult, like our limitations and flaws. In all honesty and despite all of that, those memories are just memories... though some are still unresolved.
So here's my personal tidbit (and reasons) why I looked back:
Vince noticed this long time ago (or maybe not). I stopped visiting the wiki around mid-2015 to 2016 because I felt useless around here. Everyone has their stories to be told and everyone is ahead of me. I feel left behind and I actually tell you guys about this because I thought I'm just going to be another problem upon your shoulders while it wasn't. I feel so unimportant at that time, I feel being crushed by being a fresh high school graduate to a college freshman and there are tons of work and projects to be done. I saw everyone had a purpose but me, I feel I'm somehow forgotten and that leaves a terrible emotional scar on me and it is still bleeding up to this point.
The reason why I didn't tell you guys these problems because I'm in my suicidal phase that time. Every sharp object that I turned to became something that I want to harm myself painfully. It seems at that time everyone had an obssession while I got left behind that I nearly stopped chasing my dreams. I felt like I was going to be rejected and I envy deeply everyone up to now.
I didn't love myself and I'm still learning to accept my flaws. My headmates are actually there for me not to commit any harm to myself. I'm thankful that they exist because it wasn't for them, I'll be long gone now.
I always think (and the others too): what if this Wiki and Series itself didn't exist? Would we still be the same people? Maybe in an alternate universe, who knows? We still meet somewhere in the internet but we're blended in this mundane society that doesn't know how and when to fix things up. I don't know how fate actually works. No one does but I'm really glad that I meet ya'll, including the ones who already left the wiki.
Eventhough most of you guys leave emotional wounds and scars on me, directly and indirectly, all those times I'm away from you guys... it reminded me of life. Eventhough it hurts, I did my best to move on and begin to accept myself who I really am.
If it wasn't for you guys, I'll be a lot worse than I actually am. My manipulative side has taken over me and I'll be rebellious than you think.
I just wanna say thank you, guys. And I love ya'll.
(PS I initiate a big group hug and I just notice there tears on my keyboard while typing this whole thing)
i still dont know what you guys went through before i even joined but seeing how especially all of you are to each other, and now me to all of you
all i can say is that meeting you guys and being friends with you all is one of the best things ever
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!! > ~ <
you sure did boi
okay i guess
oh hey light
to be honest vince you are practically one of the people i look up to
i mean, not to be condescending here but, its true. I mean with your series and everything and how you managed to connect each character in SU actually shows your own passion for creativity and diverse, fictional world where the characters arent just pieces of work that are well literally just works. I think that, as i would see anyway in my opinion, unlike most writers or creators out there who tend to forget a few, some or at best most of their own characters in their respective series, you bring the rest and even show the others who arent a part of the main series now to make sure that they arent forgotten.
the way you built them up does show your own touch in empathy toward your creations and by the details you do in your drawings only adds that you are passionate with what you do. I might be starting to sound what you didnt like but, i couldnt find any other line of words for that so, sorry.
in any case i do respect you because of that and though you may do troll me, especially when gaming, its all in good fun and i, again in my own eyes, can see that you just like to have as much fun with your friends, your creations and the ones close to you as possible. you did say before that life is too short for all dour things to be wasted on and I do agree with that. Being too serious or too down on the world is a waste of time.
But in your case, the way you overly detest yourself as you have explained is your own way of motivating yourself to push further and farther as far as you can. I did get inspired with that in my own regard since you are one of the people who i see is the strongest in this world who, despite their own shortcomings, can still motivate themselves high enough with hope to keep pushing forward with their lives and not giving up. i dont know if anybody else is going to agree with me, but i just wanted to tell you that
you are one of the people I admire and it is thanks to you I became a part of this community and stickman universe community, with the latter being a really nice and open-minded community you made in fact.
thats all dude
Also because I am NOT forgetting it this yea.
I can understand now why MW is avoiding you.
i honestly dont care anymore about him even if he remembers mine
Let the game continue!
that pic looks febolous...
^^ what they said
so we're going with that then?
okay so unless anyone else chooses another option, i will be going with that...
no seriously, in all honesty, which are one are we going to choose?
so, guys, one of you pick first and then i will just follow next... because... you know?
hey, that is on you, dude... not me or anyone else.
^ it's been "soon" already... but still nothing