Ultralord159 wrote:
I'm not sure exactly what age the majority of you are (with the exception of Vince), but I'll at least assume high school or below.Â
On to Vince's reply to my statement (which I refuse to quote because I've never quoted a post before and I don't plan to!), I can tell a lot of you don't quite understsand it. I understand and symphathize with VInce's statement (but honestly, why would you need to discipline people with a kendo stick in college?), so I figured I'd try to interpret it as best I could.
Vince, you isolate yourself. You push yourself down a lot as a way of self-improvement. Everyone does too. Maybe some more than others, but we do it whether we realize it or not. I for one have actually seen results of such things. I openly criticize (did I spell that right?) myself for anything and everything. There's nothing wrong with that.
But sometimes you have to realize that relying on yourself isn't the only option. Sometimes, you need others' help and I'm sure you realize this. Cyber is right in this case, for the team effor thing. Doing things alone has its benefits. When you do something right, you get all the credit. Yet when you do something wrong, you get all the blame. Think about politics for a second. If one monarch rules the country and the economy gets screwed up, everyone blames the monarch. Something similar happened in Germany before world war II. The german citizens were tired of paying the debt they were left with and ridded the old government, making way for the facist party and eventually paving the way to Hitler. This is why I say don't kill yourself over it. Certainly life isn't very fun. Life sucks more than anything in fact. But that's why you need to open up.
I'm sure you want to counterargue with some more "I just don't trust the world". That's fine. I don't trust the world either. Instead I trust those who have a good history with me and I know are willing to help me. But if you never open up, you'll never get to know these people. Life may suck but it's a bunch of possibilities too. Don't hate life. Hate life sometimes. Have some trust in your fellow wikians a litt.e
~~Ultra
I'll agree with you with the uncommon-common fact that life "sucks" as a whole and the sympathy and understanding you showed on what I said before, because I'll accept that, but I'll disagree and deny with the rest.
While I get the fact that you used World War II, a single Monoarch and Germany as a means to make your point, I seriously disagree. I've said this before, and I'm not afraid to say this again; I choose to walk by myself at most whenever I get the chance. While it does have its advantages and disadvantages, I'll accept the consequences of the path that I chose regardless, because the least that I'd care about is that I might even lose my life with it. I don't care if my life has to be the greatest cost of a consequence this path takes from me. Team work is something that I'm infamously not known to go with, both in reality and on the internet. I've been given the nicknames "Red Loner", "Mysterious Stranger", "Lonely Boy Vincent" and "Wandering Phantom" as a means of a mock towards my solitary, loner-type and seemingly uncooperative trait; I don't seriously care if these also act as subtle insults to me, because they are both true and false. True because of my personality trait of being a loner-type and false because if you mix with insults and other wrong choices of opinions towards me that aren't even really true.
I don't need pity for this nor do I need sympathy, I've said this before also again, I just need understanding. You're also wrong about me "not opening up and that I need to do so". How many times have you heard me talk like this in the past? I've opened more than you can count before, both obviously and subtlely. The way I speak and act is an obvious sign that I want you to understand me and the way I prefer things that can considered of only a loner-type person would choose is a subtle way that I really want you to understand me truthfully, not by my outward appearance, but my inner one.
Honestly towards none of you have known, and I know this doesn't have anything to do with this but screw it, I'm saying this anyway, I have very imaginative and easily inspired mind, where upon seeing, hearing and noticing something wonderful, exceptionally remarkable, awesome and just really inspirational, even if it's not, I suddenly come up with a great deal of ideas that's really limitless; this is a fact considering that I've created over 380+ characters and even countless other stories, two of which are coming to the public's eye soon (Stickman Universe, is the most obvious of all). Whether or not you see them as good, all that I'd care about is that I managed to make it into a reality and not just a thought inside my mind. Hate and Bash them as much as you want, because that's not what's gonna end up killing me anyway; words don't kill, but actions do. People who act indefinitely and immaturely over bad choices of words is already a way of seeing that you're more inferior that you put on; though this isn't my way of insulting or saying that you guys, all of you, are inferior and idiotic. I'll never insult or harm any of you...
Unless of course if you guys motivate me to do so... because as far as you've all already known by now, I'll go to extreme lengths to make sure whoever wrongs me, you and anyone else I hold dear to my own life that I treat more than my own self-worth, has been taught a very "valuable life lesson". For example, if you've wronged me for far too long, I'll find a way to hunt you down and make sure you pay for it, with the the chance of your own life being the cost. Even if you run away, have a large military force and even the world against me, I won't back down, nor will I yield; I shall not stop until I get you. Even if the result does come with me dying in the end, I'll at least die letting you and the rest of the world know how far I went just to reach and make you pay for what you said and did. The boundaries that I can reach is nearly unknown, even I don't know how far I can go with my own limits.
Another example of this is from when two idiotic dinkheads of a bullies were messing with Fan not too long ago, I asked her what was wrong, she told me, they were never heard of again; I even offered her to have me to go her school, make them meet me in some secluded location and make sure they stopped bullying her as the potential result of my "visit". Because I have already said this before as well, there are still a lot of things you don't know about me, yet you all assume that you do know and think that you know which is true, Â but in reality, it's not and that you're wrong. While I have let out a few things that you should all know about me already, there are some things about myself that I'd rather let you know by yourself yet some that I don't want you to know.
To end this, what I'm saying is that, despite the fact that I'm near emotionless as I only pretend to have my positive emotions as a facade for my true self, that doesn't mean that I'm not human. I have my reasons for being like this and I just need people to accept and understand how I live, how my nature goes on and why I'm like this. I've put this up on my User Page at the Fanon wiki already, and that's not such a hard thing to do, because I myself maybe someone who's complicated to understand, by after a while, you will understand. Not entirely, but little by little until you and I believe that you know me well enough. So far, between all of you, Fan and Chak are the ones that know me well, along that I'm quite protective of both of them, because I do treat them like they were my younger, non-blood related siblings who I met in this wiki.
Anyway, don't take offense on this, but if you so much as treat this as something to laugh and not take seriously about (eyes looking at you, Drew), I hope you know that by doing so, you've already written your own death wish in Death's book.
For now, I'll leave and continue my current artwok. You can check it out at the Fanon wiki if you want to, Ultra, though if you want to.
Also, here's one reason why I stay away from crowds; I like my own preferences within my interests than others, because I don't follow "what's trending", I'll only follow what piques my interest when I come into it, not what others say, think or feel about it. I'd rather go with my own choices than others when it comes to these kinds of things.
Have a good Saturday, all of you for now...